I'm not okay (I promise)

Don't mind the title its this song I'm listening to right now from "My Chemical Romance". They are so awesome they are like a mix of the used and afi. I was at record and tape traders and I got them, "Blindside", and "Velvet Revolver" cds. My grandma is making me nervous when she's driving like I usually never care about whats gonna happen next I live in the moment cause you never know what will happen in the future so why worry about whats not there?? but she makes me thing an accident is so close cause she is so nervous all the time driving i swear she's gonna have a heartattack driving.  Yesterday like I said I felt like shit but I was just really lonely and one person made me feel better and she has no idea she did it cause she didn't do anything but call me and that made me feel better I swear if I didn't have jessica I think I'd be dead right now cause all this shit going on around here is making me insane and I'll think about ending it but I think about her and I feel good. She always makes me feel good even when she dosen't realize she's doing it. My band have a name now its MAWB if you care to know what that stands for leave a comment... yea I could say it here but it's funner to make you wonder and ask hahaha. laters