Missing MAWB

It sucks how everybody left to college, Yesterday I saw my cousin Brian's band Alibi perform and how well they play and it made me miss playing and the fire inside me to play to a crowd burned more and I used to bring it down when I would be in practice with Mike and Eion and we would play the songs we had written together but now we can't so now I don't know how to turn off the desire to perform. I know it will happen one day but it seems so far away. Oh well there is positives like how we just started over the summer and we already have 9 or 10 songs written and recorded and all we need if for Chad to write lyrics and practice with us for a little bit and we can go and get a gig. I sit in my room at times and just imagine the crowd screaming for us and we all jumping around getting into the music. I want that!! why not me? anyway my mom developed pictures that my grandma took of Jessica and me and I almost break down and cry everytime I see them. I miss her so badly my heart aches when I think about times we've had together. Between her and the band I'm quickly gaining knowledge that waiting is part of life and you have to wait for whats most important in life and waiting is making me want them more especially the woman of my dreams. I know there are guys who get to see their loved ones everysingle day and who eventually start like taking advantage of them and not being thankful for everything they do and some girls like that too but the longer I'm away from her the more I appreciate all she does and is to me and I know my heart couldn't allow me to ever take her for granted. well you probably don't care unless your the one I'm talking about so bye.