what to do

Wow what a day, this movie metropolis gave me such trouble today I was about to kill somebody I had to sit in the library for a long time waiting for this movie and I couldn't watch it because a few were already watching it so when I finally go it I had to wait for a dvd player. It was weird it was making me real depressed sitting here waiting. I don't know why. Last night I saw a bunch of my family from hawaii which was cool they were so happy it makes me want to live there but it would be so far away it would be too hard to. I really want to play with the band still it sucks not being able too I miss it so much. I think the reason I was getting depressed earlier was because it showed how much of a push over I am and I never think before I do anything and so I let things happen that could have been avoided and I just sit there being sad about how I never can do anything right it would seem. [sorry samantha this is getting sad] lol. Anyways when I got home from school I was still feeling bad so I took a nap. When I woke up I still felt bad untill Jessica called and somehow I forgot about it which she seems to do a lot she makes all the bad things that seem to happen to me seem pointless and stupid and I forget they happened and I just concontrate on my love and devotion to her. I love her for being able to do that and being to one to think of when things seem to be at their worst.