my mind pisses me off

I just called Jessica to talk to her but when I found out she was with her friends I got shy and stopped talking. It happened before but I didn't think about it but now I understand why. My dad reminds me everyonce in a while that I should let her be with her friends and if I don't they might get mad and then she eventually won't have any friends here and won't have a place to stay. When I called her and found out her friends were there I got scared and shy and I realized its because I'm afraid of keeping her from her friends and them getting mad. I know its stupid that they would be mad for her being on the phone but it still is in the back of my mind and I know how important friends are and I don't want to make them mad and shit. And it kept going into the back of my mind when I was with her that her friends might be mad that shes with me and not them or something and I want to be with her, but I know how much her friends mean to her and according to my dad and aunt leslie they might not want to be friends because of me basically. It scares me to think that because of me she would lose her friends. I know it couldn't happen but it makes me nervous and tomorrow we might be hanging out with her friends and I know I'm gonna be just standing around scared to be around her.. I'm such a fucking baby.. I need to grow the fuck up sometimes.