Yea well

I haven't posted in a while so I should catch up. Lately I've been obsessed with getting a car, I want one so bad and I'm not even sure its for the right reasons. I want to be able to see jessica when I want and my car is going downhill and I need a new one but it seems like I might want it only to say I got a new car, plus the fact that mike just got a new car which I was afraid to get one just because of that fact. And just to beat my grandparents. But I dunno maybe I'm making that shit up maybe I'm not I dunno. Everyones telling me I can't do it except for Jessica which tells me how great she is. She keeps me going when everyone is against me hell even mike said I couldn't do it. I dunno but I'm gonen get one tomorrow hopefully but its jessica's birthday tomorrow so I feel kinda shitty for getting a car on her birthday. Its like oo happy birthday I got a car!! I feel so shitty about that but this is my only shot. My only time to get a car to see jessica with. I need to take it.. I wish I could get jessica a car instead cause she needs it more than I do. Grrrrr... I wish I could get 1 feeling about something now a million. Anyway I'm going back to being bored.